Oh did you hear the lie / that ate through this heart of mine?  / It unhinged its terrible jaw / to devour and swallow me whole / well truth is a servant / an electrical current / that gives life but takes just as quickly / and love is a slave you take up like a snake / cause it's just as deceitful and deadly / but oh / if i could gain back control / i played the harp of the fool / and cried the tears of king david / with the high places torn down / and all that was sacred / to me you were lost and i could just barely reach you / but the harder i fought / the more that victory seemed further away / oh did you hear the cry / of the phantom that laid down to die / i thrusted my fist through its side / to retreive what was rightfully mine / well truth is a plague that can wipe out a race / of people who make their own hell / and love is the agent that shields the contagious / from losing and harming themselves / but oh / if i could gain back control

(by jamie barnes)

Hello my lovelies. Long time no see! I miss everyone. Is it time for school yet? Oh wait, I graduated. *pout*

I hope you all are having a wonderful summer so far. Mine seems to be coalescing into spending exorbitant amounts of money on fabric and shiny things and yummy candles and incense and supplies for craft projects that I may or may not ever actually attempt. That and reading a whole lotta comic books. ^_^

Currently I'm trying to psych myself up for the uber-drama of this weekend when I have a big dance performance on Friday night. Hopefully I can get both of my new costumes finished by tomorrow night so I can have a little time to practice in them.

Love and cyberhugs!

~Becca 

Let me fall

Let me climb

There's a moment when fear and dream must collide

Someone I am is waiting for courage

The one I want

The one I will become

Will catch me

So let me fall

If I must fall

I won't heed your warnings -- I won't hear them

All I ask --

All I need --

-- Let me open whichever door I might open 

Let me fall

If I fall

All the feelings may or may not die 

I will dance so freely

Holding on to no one

You can hold me only if you too will fall

Away from all

These useless fears

And chains 

Someone I am is waiting for my courage

The one I want -- the one I will become -- will catch me

So let me fall if I must fall

I won't heed your warnings, I won't hear

Let me fall

If I fall

There's no reason to miss this one chance --

This perfect moment --

Just --

Let me fall

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quidam 

Hey you kiddos, anyone up for dinner tomorrow night? I'd like to try that new place BJ's over by Olive Garden, but I'm up for anything if there are other ideas. I'm also interested in Pirates 3 (I foresee the campiest sequel ever! wewt!) if by some chance of fate there are tickets left. Anyway, let me know if you're up for it. I miss seeing everyone! I work until 6pm but after that I'm yours. ^_^

Ciao loves

There is officially nothing that makes a girl feel sexier than still being able to wear the slinky skin-tight dress from senior prom four years ago. ^_^

(If you're wondering, I dug it out to wear to my grandparents' 60th wedding anniversary party. I figure if they're going to make me spend potentially four hours with old people I've never met I can at least have some fun with my outfit and blue hair.) 

Well, my lovelies, I made it through and I only feel moderately more out of my mind than before!  ^_^  School is over and now I wait with baited breath for final LITERALLY FINAL grades and my ultimate GPA.  I'm oscillating between moments of euphoria and nostalgia.  I think that's normal.

This next week I shall be working nights, and occupying my mornings with such things as attempting to get my life in order.  It should be fun.

I hope everyone is having a lovely summer so far. 

I just need to write teh conclusion paragraph for my paper and then I'm done DONE FOREVER the excitement is palpable! Or maybe that's just the twitchiness from all the coffee COFFEE EEHEHEHE I have discovered that at 3 o'clock in the morning one loses the ability to use punctuation and think coherently especially when listening to Lemon Demon music by Neil Ceicierega (spelling obviously questionable). His site http://www.eviltrailmix.com/ should be visited often. Listen to the music. It's fun! It's catchy! It will make you dissolve into uncontrollable dancing and cackling! I recommend the song entitled Antispider. And...

OH MY GOD I TOTALLY JUST SAW SOMETHING MOVE BEHIND MY COUCH. That's the other bad thing about being awake at 3am -- you start hallucinating strange black things. At least I hope I'm hallucinating and my already potentially haunted apartment doesn't have another guest.

Right so seeing as how my rough draft of this paper just fell off the couch for no reason I'm going to take the hint and get back to work. HAHAHAH TEH GHOSTS ARE MAKING ME BE STUDIOUS. That's just cute.

 

So my plan to take a "power nap" last night failed whole-heartedly and while I immensely enjoyed those nine hours of sleep, man do I wish I had that time back to finish these freakin' papers. 

Ugh. I fail at school.

Thank the gods its ending tomorrow. Holy hell.

(I keep typing "Holey hell" instead of "Holy." I'm not sure what that means, but one of these days I'm going to stop correcting and just go with it.)

Ooh, I'm getting heart palpitations! Time for more coffee! ^_^

I just dyed my hair black. It is lovely. Still bluey tinged, but that's ok. For now.

Well, my plans for pulling an all-nighter totally failed, so here I am drinking coffee and attempting to orient myself sufficiently to work on a take-home final for my online class.

Fun times.

I hope everyone else is having a more motivated time out in Finals Land. 

MTFBWY

(If you know what that means without me spelling it out I will SO bake you brownies or the desert of your choice when this week is over.) ^_^ 

I am eating Mexican food for dinner. That is all.